I was stretched out on a hospital table for a routine echocardiogram, a procedure that I have done periodically to monitor my chronic heart condition. As hospital procedures go, I have long lost any modesty that I once may have had and I am quite used to having medical equipment attached to various parts of my body.
The very professional medical technician was applying adhesive patches to various parts of my chest as I lay on my side. When she applied the patches around my left nipple the sensation, while not necessarily painful, was very strong. I have characteristically regarded my nipples without very much attention, considering them simply to be appendages that I had attached to my body somewhat akin to the lobes of my ears. They are not particularly erotic; they just sit there and mind their own business.
The tech noticed my startle reaction and she asked me if I was on prostate medication. I answered yes and she proceeded to tell me the astonishing news that the prostate medication supplied estrogen to my system and suppressed testosterone, clarifying for me, the fact that I had noticed my skin condition was much softer and had better color in it.
I quickly concluded that this was corroboration of the fact that I was becoming much more conscious of my feminine side and that my body was simply a part of the party. Since I consider myself to be an androgynous heterosexual, this information was given enormous credence.
The tech, bless her heart, proceeded to tell me that young girls, when they entered puberty, with its rush of endocrine estrogen, also became aware of considerable tenderness in their own nipples so I was now suddenly a possible member of a sorority.
Looking back I realized that it has taken me only 76 years to arrive at this balanced polarity between the yin and the yang or the anima and the animus.
As can be predicted by anyone who knows me, I thereupon proceeded to apply this revelation to all of the interactions around me trying, as best I could, to parse out the various contributions of these endocrine secretions which were racing through my body in terms of my overt behavior toward a woman or man. This is obviously a work in progress and I will report the results of my data collection in a timely fashion.
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